Saturday, February 13, 2010

Tomorrow is the big day

Micah is going to be arriving at the Portland airport tomorrow at 1:34 pm. I am going to park my car in the parking garage, walk anxiously (probably struggling to decide whether to run or to walk...possibly leading to tripping over my feet, as usual), and then wait for him at the bottom of the escalator by baggage claim. I have been picturing this moment since August 19th when I left him in Indiana after our summer together. I've been trying to be careful to keep my blog a blog and not a public diary. I have been blog-stalking someone who bleeds all over her blog and I don't want to do that. Therefore, I just want to say that I am very, very excited about tomorrow.
Micah and I are starting a new chapter in our life together; essentially distinguished by the fact that we will be together- hahaha. Individuals and couples have spent more time apart than we have, but I still cannot deny that this has been a notable challenge in my life. It was never a challenge because I wanted to give up or anything like that, but finding ways to connect with one another and to make our long-distance relationship have tangible and meaningful qualities required a lot of patience and creativity. When we enter into whatever struggles we will have in the future, I hope we can flex these muscles of creativity that we developed together over the last 6 months.
I am laying in my bed right now, under several blankets (I had been craving a chilly night under warm blankets, so I turned off the space heater in my room...and, boy, is it chilly in my room!), and I have a similar feeling to the one I experienced the night before going to middle school, high school, college, and moving to Oregon. For the first time in my life, I am having a life-change that has nothing to do with school. It is hard to understand or describe. I'm not sure if anyone could identify with it (maybe Alicia when she moved to Cali?), but it's a powerful feeling. Rather than try to push aside these strong feelings of anticipation, excitement, worry, and nervousness, I am enjoying just basking in the reality of it all. I hope I remember this night later.

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